The study below, published January 28, 2014, by Emily A. Reyes in the Los Angeles Times, speaks to a Transgender Study which looks at the "exceptionally high" suicide attempt rate among the transgender. It is 9x the US average. 41% of transgender individuals have attempted suicide. For more information about this study, please go to the link.
Coming through my own confusion of non-understanding, I came to realize that J was a "White Bird". He>She only wanting to have freedom for self. (Represented by analogy, through the music of Vanessa Mae) Please see sidebar.